friday thoughts on a tuesday

lawd...i haven't even given birth yet and trying to keep up has proven to be a task but before i start beating myself up, i am choosing to forgive myself for the imperfection.  :)  this topic to be blogged about at a later date.  

so to the topic at hand.... friday thoughts on a tuesday.  

being 3 weeks out to welcoming a baby into this world, can be super intimidating and overwhelming.  am i ready, are we ready, is the house ready, can i do this in general.  and at that moment, i say yes.  i will not be perfect, nor can i try to be.  i just need to be me and do the best that i can.  that's all anyone can ask for and he will never know if i didn't get all the laundry done, or the house clean.  what he will know and what we strive to do is love.  love him and each other.  there needs to be more of it in the world.  it all starts with us.  as parents, friends and family.  be a better person.  do more.  love harder.  it's our responsibility.

this past week has been an extremely emotional week for me in various aspects of my life.  many of the emotions have been good and there have been some that i have had to process.  we aren't always dealt the cards we want but it is how we handle ourselves in the moment of struggle, that defines who we are and how we are perceived by others.  sometimes you just get tired.  tired of settling for less and continually being looked at as someone who will "always understand".  i'm only human and i too have needs and deserve the best out of what i give.  there are some tough decisions to be made in the following weeks but there is no better time than the present.  and i hope that for anyone who is struggling like to me to make that change, i hope you find the peace to be able to make the change too.

i have been so blessed and honored by multiple friends and my sister in law showering this lil guy with love.  my soul sister that has been living on a boat for 6 months surprised me by attending one of the showers.  to say that was the best gift is an understatement.  i mean i couldn't be more grateful and the attention to detail from them, made me feel more than special.  it was everything that i could have asked for and more.  i can only hope i am half of a friend and in law that they all are.   

i've got some really fabulous things in store for the next few weeks even with a lil bean on the way but i hope that you can forgive the tardiness that may occur.  i don't want to set that precedent but it will be a reality.  

thinking of you all and wishing you happy warm spring days!  pictures to come soon!